05/19/2008
Good
Good
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk_politics/7407589.stm
That is all I can say at the moment... relief...
I am not so bothered about banning true 50/50 hybrids (as that would get messy in all sorts of tangible and ethical/philosophical ways), now we just have: saviour siblings, abortion and the role of fathers in IVF.
The first I am really not sure of... Killing life to save life is one thing and hard to justify, but I think it is equally hard to justify creating a life just to save another. But then again, there are so many unwanted children in the world that the fact they might only be wanted for the sake of another is hardly credible as an argument. I can understand why people would want these saviour siblings. But part of me also says that people should be born unique and *untampered with*... And that people should have the chance to find their own purpose, not have one handed to them on a plate. (There was an interesting book along a similar yet very different line: "The Girls" that told the story of two siamese twins and their dependence on each other.) I think ultimately in this case there should be no law against it. There is also the question of to what extent we will screen embryo's and how selective we become... Apparently "My sister's Keeper" raises this issue, but I have not read it.
Abortion date. At 8 weeks an embryo becomes a foetus. At 10 the vital organs (including brain) are fully formed and by 12 weeks the neuronal development is such that the foetus has reflexes and muscle control. By week 20 we have facial expression, fully functional cardiac and urinal cycles, semi-functional digestive tract (obviously this doesn't actually finish developing until the child has been weaned), motor control (thumb sucking and other cure things apparently) and the development of the senses - taste, smell etc. At the critical 24 weeks the foetus has a 44% chance of surviving outside the uterus, at 23 weeks this is reduced to 16%. By now the eyes are developed (still no pigment) and the foetus is responing to sounds of the outside world.
The question really is... what is the significance in this reduction. Yes, 200 000 abortions a year is too much. And yes, I do not find the idea in any way appealing. Apparently, 24 weeks was chosen when this was the age that the foetus could survive outside the uterus with support. Recent medical develoments have made in more likely for a foetus to survive a younger age and now the limit is supposedly 21 weeks. Question: Is it foetal viability if they require life support? Or the date of the earlier premature child that survived? Or the date when any foetus could theoretically survive unsupported outside the womb. (btw: I believe the data here, is *survive into adulthood without consequential complications*... but I wouldn't swear to it)
The choice of whether or not to abort is one of the hardest ones I can imagine any couple/woman having to make. However, if the choice is possible, if we are still going to let people decide in advance that their own/their child's quality of life will be too low to be worth the living of it... If we let people have that choice then part of me says that the woman needs as much time as we can give her to make her decision as evenly as possible with minimal trauma and mental upset. There is also the issue of the speed of the legal process. Then there is the issue of abortion for medical reasons - in particular the mothers. As I see it, I don't think that the reduction is significant in real way except to keep the law in line with it's original intention.
I think the question really is the significance of foetal viability?
Father's Role in IVF. I can not find out quite what is being debated here as people ae getting too hyped up over abortion (as ever) and their new pet favourite or "Frankenstien's Monster" (a.k.a. hybrids). I think the move is to say that father's are unnecessary and giving single women and lesbian couples equal opportunities for IVF treatments. I am not sure where I stand on this... instinct tells me I am against it. However, I know as well as the next person how many people fail to find their family in blood relatives and instead look for mothers, fathers, brothers, aunts, cousins... in the people around them. A father figure is essential, yes. Or several...
As I don't know what is actually being discussed... So I shall say that I think I support the role in sperm doner father's finding the identity of their child... But I think if this is the case then maybe they should be expected to play a part in the support of the child.
I shall now witter on various related topics.
Ok... logically. I support the birth of children to single sex couples because I can not think of a reasonable argument against it. They offer more support and stability that single parent families and in my experience it is the complimenting of personalities and *roles* that makes a sucessful relaitonship. Whilst this may be more common (in my observation alone) in heterosexual couples I would never say it was impossible with single sex couples... and I am aware how the relative sample sizes will have colours my opinion. I would suggest that finding father figures in family friends etc, would be useful... but the same is true of many many families.
I am not sure if I could advocate the birth of a child to a single woman through IVF simply from a logistical perspective. Accidents happen so to speak, and people end up in single parent families with only one source of income and support. However, I don't know how much I could support the deliberate creation of a life with only one half of a family and equally only half the deserved support...
It is a hard one, and most of my views stem from my rather (odd maybe all things considered) strong opinions on family. And also balance within family, between the sexes, between personality... (losely) I think I believe, procreation was intended for man and woman who - ideally - between them can offer protection, education, support and fun through the combination of their own specific talents and traits. We all know that the actual occurance of this is rare - but the question is, to what extent are we willing to allow the deliberate breaking away from this ideal.
So I think I will stand - for the moment at least - with homosexual couples: yes... single parents... no.
It is interesting to note that some of the animal research into homosexuality has been a propensity for homosexual males to develop in a population where there are too many dominant males. These males act as ballast (so to speak), filling the role of an uncle, and supporting the community without actually reproducing. The suggestion is that in these circumstances, homosexuality is a means of controlling population growth.
Not sure what I believe about that, or how is affects the argument... but it is an interesting point.
xXx
PS: so much for organ practise.
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01/14/2008
Uses of humour
The Telegraph produced a rather curious article today
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/opinion/main.jhtml?xml=/opinio...
The idea of using ridicule and humour as a defense mechanism for times of conflct is not uncommon. Neither, if you think about it, is to use comedy as an attack and a weapon.
How many people do you know who, when faced with insult or trouble, treat the entire thing as one large joke? Looking around (particularly in England with the "Thou shalt not take thyself seriously (under ANY cirucmstances)" rule) it is easy to see how many people sit behind their comfoting wall of irony, sarcasm, wit and sattire as they move steadily from day to day. Even the worst traumas can be overcome with a few jokes and a laugh - at least to the people watching and that is all that really matters. Appearances are kept up and life kept going by daily injections of stand-up comedy.
Equally, how often so you see ridicule being used to bully and oppress people either in the playground (if you are at school), or the office (if you are at work) or in a family (if you are ... well...)? So often the person with the most power is the one who can simply make everyone else look weaker, and what better way to do this than by comedy, humour and "all in the name of fun". I have seen children cry over direct insult for hours, I have seen children fall utterly silent over ridicule for weeks, months and years.
I am not trying to say use of humour is good or bad or safe or harmful. There is no way it can be caegorised so easily. It is however potent. It can hurt, it can heal, it can make people change how they think and how they act. It is a weapon... how can we use it? How should we use it? Where would it be most effective? Where is it most needed at the moment.
xXx
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09/19/2007
News and literature
After a protracted period of silence I feel strongly persuaded to present you with a plethora of progessions in my otherwise pedestrain life. :P (I realised after the second p that I could have some fun with this sentance and I will once again use the time-old excuse... its MY blog!)
Anyway... to those of you who do not already know, I am doing music at Uni!! :D And over the moon. Seriously, my cheecks are complaining because I am grinning to much. Not only do I now have time to do the things I wish to do (like practise, or read, or draw or listen), but no! This is encouraged in me. Active development of skills outside the classroom is encouraged and praised. No longer do I have to feel guilty for practising for more than the allotted 45 minutes. I am free! And it is wonderful.
And as for my degree... I can't wait.
Along with this I have given up Further maths. This is a less joy-bringing development, I do enjoy maths and will be sorry so see it go (despite the extreme hang-hold it had on my time). However, I do not enjoy - and neither am I good at - so that is less of a loss. And as I need the time, am not certain of an A, and do not enjoy the course I woulkd have to take it seemed like the logical conclusion. I will pick maths up again when I have time and inclination (If this means never I will be dissapointed, but so be it).
Music itself is going well. I still need to order reeds from Howarths, so that will happen tomorrow. Started playing piano again - a glorious piece of Schumann! Which I will do in a concert sometime. Might pester one of the teachers to give me playing advice, but it seems fairly self-explanitory. Organ is organ. Some brilliant hymns, and even better volentaries. The head decided to announce my scholarship in assembly, I don't know how I feel about that. :S oh... and how do I tell the difference between Sibeleus and Wagner? ("Sounds like toffee pudding" applies to both!)
Went to the English Society last night. Which I have a strange feeling I enjoyed more than the English Students there. The talk was basically on "what is literature" and the perspective was that literature is a piece of writing that intrinsically serves no purpose and that now (with the rise in consumerisation) we no longer have literature as all written word is a comodity. Here I must disagree with a several issues:
- Publised books have always been a comodity; nowadays that comodity is accecisble to all instead of just the wealthy.
- If literature serves no purpose then there can be no literature written in the past as all historical literature gives us significant insight into that culture and how social states functioned during that period. Literature also allows us to develop our understanding of people and how people see things - it is in essence one persons view on a scenario be it imaginary or the combination of a series of events theyhave experienced.
- All writing has a purpose as it is written (perhapse not conciously so). People write what they feel, how they think, what polotics they support and abhor, the qualities they admire or distain - all these factors come across through good literature as the author (in part) tries to communicate and promote their own beliefs. Few people positively advertise that which they dislike.
- True, part of the beauty of literature is that is is based in fantasy and does not point to specific instances in time and tangible objects or events (and in this sense it is nothingness and "useless") but this does not mean it serves no purpose. If we limit purpose to the epirical then we limit all sense of culture/unity/emotion/faith/belief and also all sense of identity and history. We can not bring out our sense of beloninging (to a family or a group) as an object to see when it is discussed (Guliver's Travels - the philosophers) and neither can we identify a specific purpose for literatue that is ubiquitous. This does not mean one does not exist.
- The moment we try to define literature, to categorise it, to class it and treat it as something which can be contained and measured then we loose sight of so much, you cannot qualify the emotive and the beautiful. Why is something beautiful? Because it fulfills the golden ratio? Or because we take pleasure in it? Because the colours do not comflict? Or because it reminds us of a time we were happy?
Sorry, that was an incredibly badly constructed set of arguments/thoughts. My head is still reeling slightly as it was a very in depth talk. You will not be surprised to hear that I said nothing during the questions time!
Anyway, I should go do something productive (shocking isn't it!)... probably organ! But there is another character pending in office blog... so I think I shall post another episode of that, hopefully a little more amusing than the last.
xXx
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08/26/2007
Of Organ and Middle Class England
I played my first service at Harlton today. For those of you who did not know, I am now the Organ Scholar there and therefore required to put in a friendly appearance from time to time. :) It actually went quite well, which was good, and all in all I found the visit entirely amusing. ((By the way, this is being written as an occupation whilst I print out some pictures for Steve... so it might end rather abruptly)).
There is nothing better than a long cycle ride, along (fast country) roads, that you have never cycled along, to a place you have never visited (or even heard of until 6 weeks ago), early in the morning.... when you have had a sum total of3 hours of sleep. Of course, the scenario was jsut improved by the fact that I was going to be playing, my eyes hurt (pollen) and I had done no exercise for 4 days so my leg muscles started to hurt about a mile through Granchester. Oh yes, did I mention I went the long way around!
Anyway, let mecease complaining, and detail the conversation I had with the church warden when I arrive.
*****
Ruth enters church slowly with considerable apprehension. Jean is dressed formally and attending to some hymn books on one of the pews. Jean looks up unnerved and both smile awkwardly until recognition dawns on Jeans face.
JEAN: Hello?
RUTH: Hello
JEAN: You're Ruth, Pleased to meet you She hurries forward extending her hand and a firm handshake is exchanged.
RUTH: And you.
JEAN: So you are here to play for us, that is lovely.
RUTH: Yes, well Leon is playing some of it just to make it easier while I familiarise... [ad lib]
JEAN: Are you an American lady?
Ruth: purplexed No... Pure English
JEAN: Oh, you have a lovely accent.
*****
Someone please explain that to me.
Anyway, I went, practise, and was interupted no less than 6 times to shake hands with various local dignitaries - all smiling and wearing their Sunday best. Bells start tolling and more people stare at me as I start to play a Waltz tune in F (first hymn) - I was glad I decided to dress smartly for this :). I then get bored... and start playing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" in 3/4 time which promts more stares and raised eyebrows from Leon, who is now sitting behind me.
The service goes well, although I can't register the pieces as I would like due to unfamiliarity with the (Electirc) organ - my practise time having been somewhat disturbed. The vicar preaches for anarchy. During Communion I Play a very pretty (if I do say so myself) improvisation of "Dear Lord and Father of Mankind") which gets me many compliments and makes me smile. A lot of notices and then Bach's Prelude and Fugue in F Maj from the 8 Short Preludes and Fugues to finish.
Then more hand shaking, smiling and listening attentively to the Treasurer tell me about the old Organ here and how lovely it is to see a new face.... you get the picture. We dutifully file out of the church and Leon, myself and another go to his house where his wife serves us coffee in the garden and sits very quitely whilst we discuss organs and music. Key features of this conversation are: name dropping, the mine is bigger game and "Yes..." - guess which applies to whome. I am now to play the Trio Sonata on Oct 13th for a celebration concert of the New organ - in whatever state it has reached by then.
It will be a lovely instrument, but I shall detail its many virtues when it is finished.
So all in all it was a pleasent morning, I played more than tolerably well (for once). The people as all very kind and friendly and so "Small, rural, affluent, pituresque village in East Anglia"!!!! It's brilliant.
Oh and yes, for those who were wondering... the vicar did preach calling for anarchy and a disregard for rules in favour of what God say in your heart. (!) I had to bite my lip to stop myself from giggling aloud all the way through. I mean, that sort of sermon does no harm in such a village, it might persuade people to forgo moviing their front lawn one Saturday so they can visit a friend... But even so, country Rector preaching *for* ANARCHY!
I love it
On another note: Stupid things I have done today:
- Forgot my keys - but I did get the chance to visit our next door neighbours who (on account of their holiday, my boarding and then our holiday) I have not seen for 6 months or so! :(
- Put salt in my desert.... though it was sugar/vanilla sprinkles!
- Started shaking before the evening service which didn't help the whole playing thing - I DETEST evensong.
- Had a conversation I probably should have avoided (for sanities sake) but can't change that... and it was inevitable
- Not packed...
- Not finished printing these photos...
- Not finished sorting my room
Oh well.
Best get on
xXx
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08/17/2007
These boots were infact made for dancing ...
The first thing I must say, is that much as I enjoy travelling by train (freedom to move and stretch etc...) the pleasure is more than somewhat marred by two somewhat unnerved family members, one of whome is highly aggitated. It was after such a journey that I arrive in Sidmouth and have to carry a rather heavy backpack up the hill to the campsite telling my younger sister fairae stories until she is scared and asks me to stop. (Yes, maybe my patience had worn a little thin, but it was only a standard seelie/unseelie adapted folk tale!). Pitching camp in the dark heralds two rather arduous days of not doing much until the festival kicks in properly. And here comes the real news...
First on the list is the Anchor Garden's Celidh. And the first dance is a variation of a Circassian Circle and here I met Peter-Paul and Manon (although I don't think my failure to spin out correctly after year without dancing impressed them :P). I also renewed friendship with Bob and Steve (Towersey folkies) and generally found my feet (both left ones on occasion). A note for anyone attending next year, bring outdoor dancable shoes... gravel is painful in bare feet and I will pay anyone large sums of money if they manage to dance the willow tree sucessfully in flipflops!!
Chadwicks. and Jen arrive making the total in our camp 11 and the total number of people at the first concert 13 (Fiona and Joy)... Fiona proved a highly useful addition to the party, for along with all her natural charms and the delight of her company, her disabled status allowed us some truly spectacular seats for both Show of Hands and the Spooky Men's Chorale. If you have not heard either of these groups, do so. They have the remarkable capability of making me wish I were male simply so I could be part of
- the gritty and powerful sound of Show of Hands - female voices can do a lot, but that variety of sound and gravel is beyond even th strongest female singer
- t testosterone drenched genial bufoonary - (I hope I quote correctly) - of The Spooky Men, who had me laughing so much I couldn't speak later on!
The week went on and more people turned up... old partners and a few new partners formed a nice group of "people I can bump into and say hello to..." Ran into Peter-Paul and Manon again at an LNE... was not recognised much to my amusement and apparently his embarassment... until Emma turned up and introduced me properly {yes w*are*sisters). Also met Brendan (dragged up to dance with me by one of the Hammersmith Morris Men who I had been chatting to but had hurt his leg). And of course there is Tom, who never ceased to make me laugh, and whome I first saw at the lunchtime Mawkin concert although I doubt he will remember that. (I have a strange memory sometimes).
In general my days consisted of dancing a collection of English, Contra and Ceilidh (no scottish :( )... and anyone with any idea how I ended up in the display sets for Enlish dancing, please enlighten me! :S It was very scary being surround by lots of disparaging hawks who seemed certain I was incompetant... When they realised I wasn't they tended to assume I was professional which was a little entertaining. The week started well with my presence being noted at both the 9:30 workshops and the 1am Late Night Extras and I never wanted for partners. I believe my record to be 5 dance partners lined up which was very confusing when I had to remember who I'd agreed to dance with next.
The breakfast workshop was started midweek at Steve's tent... and put an end to all early morning activity for me - replacing exercise with good conversation, bacon, tomatoes and very fine coffee. I have to confess I became a regular, and intend to remain one.
Time passes, and feet become steadily sorer... Tom leaves us for the petie world of work (poor man) and a delightful afternoon is spent shopping for drinks and a black tie for Steve to wear to the BlackTie Ceilidh - there is always one, and in this case I feel my sister beat him with her rather interesting combination:
- halter-neck black dress
- black bow tie
- fancy shoes
- black and white stripy socks
- blue cumberbund
The French dance was a source of great amusement as I struggled (and in the end managed to a degree) to learn French dancing off the hoof so to speak. Apologies to Edward, Peter-Paul and Jen for all the times I stood on your feet. :( I promise I will practise before the next dance! I will have to add here that I have a new love for French dance... it is beautiful. :D Especially when we end up dancing around the Ham concert marquee to Le Bébert Orchestra. :D
And if anyone can dance and wants to come as a partner to the next dance in Norwich I would be more than enternally grateful!
I can think of little to note for the rest of the week except for exciting cream tea workshops, envigorating swims, enjoyable dinners (with amusing waitress service) and enthralling conversations as well as copious quantities of dance. Morris Men with Fire... scary and very pretty :D My sister made friends with the Spooky Man... stole his hat and in return he stole my Bacon bap :(. Most parties went on till 4 or 5 am so there wasn't really a dull moment for the entire week. And thanks to Justin and Joe for their continuous supply of lemonade and good conversation - Renaissance music, science and computers, good food, good drink....
And needless to say I managed to sleep in the car on the way home.
Although I did end up in London the next day to meet up once again with Peter-Paul, Manon and Edward... the wisdom of this can be discussed seperately and at a later date.
Here endeth the Sidmouth post. And leaves me just to say, "It was a great holiday, thanks to you all and I hope you all feel the same, I shall see some of you at IVFDF, the rest of you next summer and hopefully, some of you before then... Take care, look after your feet and remember, it isn't a Celidh until someone has shouted "NO! THE OTHER LEFT!" "
Love to you all
xXx
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08/13/2007
back from... well wherever it was I went :S
Well I have decided that I now have enough time on my hands to write here... and If I don't (which is quite probably), I intend to do so anyway!
I will leave you anticipating a long, verbose, articulate, intrinsically amusing and equally informative Sidmouth post.... :P until I feel up to writing one and for the moment simpy say that I have just been away on a very good holiday :D.
Other than that I now have 2 weeks to fill... with
- Norfolk
- Sailing
- Kayaking
- Organ
- Oboe
- Physics
- Cooking
- Gardening
- WOW
- ....
Plus a few other things... At the moment I have done very little of that list, so best get going.
Were we the last band of Heros?
Or simply partners in crime?
Never thought I'd feel this way
At closing time.
xXx
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03/22/2007
Happy
Makes a change....
Tonight I:
- Watched my little sister take responsability for her actions and (for once) decide to do something she didn't want to do, over something she did - she's no idea how proud I am of her.
- Watched my other less little sister play one AWESOME xylophone piece (and I heard her practising) and part of one of the best percussion ensembles I have heard in a long time.
- Worked out a "project" for next term... more later maybe, not keen on saying until it gets off the ground
- Saw Basil and Katie and Sophie and Jenny AGAIN :D and laughed... and joked... and talked old times (DT with Basil :P). You forget how much you miss people... and just how good some friends are. Just have to hold onto people like that because they don't come around often... teehee
- Arranged to meet up with various people next week.
- And my boyfriend said he'd be there to meet me afterwards even though I wasn't sure I'd be back. :D :D :D :D Actually made my day, however sad that is... and the fact that he didn't turn up is almost irelevent.
- And most importantly went to a concert that finally reminded me why I chose to do music A level, what I love so much about the subject, what is so amazing about it if PEOPLE ONLY PUT A LITTLE BIT OF LIFE INTO IT. The program was excellent, high quality all round with one exception, and particular mention due to the Madriguys (4 part BarberShop) Madrigals as ever, Junior choir and the Percussion Group.
Came back grinning ... and singing ...
Goonight
xXx
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02/01/2007
I hate this world
http://www.newscientist.com/blog/shortsharpscience/2007/01/cheap-and-simple-cure-for-cancer.html
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
A cheap and simple cure for cancer?
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It is rare to find a drug that sweeps away decades of assumptions and reveals a radical approach to treating all forms of a disease. But a simple, small molecule called dichloroacetate (DCA) has done just that - and to that most dreaded of diseases: cancer.
The new findings, might also force a rethink on what actually causes cells to turn cancerous in the first place.
In 1930, biochemist Otto Warburg, proposed that cells turn cancerous through a fundamental change in the way they generate their energy. Normally, cells use specialised organelles called mitochondria to supply their energy. Cancer cells shift to a process called glycolysis which takes place in the main body of the cell. Glycolysis is an inefficient system of making energy which normal cells employ only when oxygen is in short supply, switching to mitochondrial energy production when oxygen levels increase.
Curiously, Warburg discovered that cancer cells continue to use glycolysis even when oxygen is plentiful. He called this the "Warburg effect", and claimed it was common to all cancer cells.
His ideas were dismissed and buried long ago, not least when another famous biochemist, Hans Krebs, said the Warburg effect was a symptom of cancer, not the primary cause. This scepticism was reinforced by the belief that cancer cells switch to glycolysis because their mitochondria are damaged and don't work any more.
Enter DCA, which has been used for years to treat people with mitochondrial disease. The drug boosts the ability of mitochondria to generate energy. When given to cancer cells it did the same: the cells switched from glycolysis to mitochondrial energy production. What's more, functional mitochondria help cells recognise functional abnormalities and trigger cell death.
In tests, the DCA caused cancer cells to lose their "immortality" and die. When the drug was given to rats with human tumours, the tumours shrank. Warburg may have been right after all - glycolysis may be more than just a symptom of cancer.
So why not rush straight into clinical trials with this drug? It is cheap, does not appear to affect normal cells, we know its side effects, and it should work on all cancers.
There's a hitch: dichloroacetate is an old drug and so cannot be patented. The upshot is that pharmaceutical companies can't stop rivals making and selling it more cheaply, so it's not worth their while to go to the huge expense of testing it in clinical trials.
This is not a new problem. Many drugs are left on the shelf because companies cannot make lots of money from them. It has happened for diseases that affect mainly poor people, such as TB, although there are now an increasing number of initiatives to help deal with these cases. But cancer is historically a disease that chiefly afflicts the rich, and testing DCA will need a one-off effort.
Drugs companies will be falling over themselves to find a patentable drug with similar action to DCA. Any of these that reach the market will be hugely expensive. It would be a scandal if a cheap alternative with such astonishing potential were not given a chance simply because it won't turn a big enough profit.
Andy Coghlan, senior reporter
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01/12/2007
Well here goes another one ...
And that curious entity known as the Ruth becomes 17. Having steadily reviewed her progress over the past year we are now in a position to make some rather curious observations about this strange species (althought further examination is necesssary to back any statements made)
January 12 2006 was a very long day for our test subject. It is ironic to think that whilst she spent this particular 24 hours making a, somewhat morbid, concious descision not to move out of home, she has now done exactly that. Granted, this process has been somewhat smoother and more acceptable than has been previously anticipated; but the fact still remains that our subject (hence forward referred to as "R") now lives 6/7 days at school with the final day being occupied mostly by a combination of friends and church.
This latest change had been preceeded by a somewhat less noticable alteration (though no less critical to thwe development of R) in her progression to the status commonly referred to as "A Level Student". Unfortunately for our test subject, whilst this has given her much greater oportunity to carry out sucessful social interaction (see Para 5), it has not given her any greater stimulation or occupation. Her lack of patience has now led to an interesting combination of "tweaks" to her educational system.
She now
- Teaches herself Applied Mathematics alongside sporadic dips into Game Theory
- Teaches other people Chemistry (with a view to being given something in the following months*)
- Listens in Core Mathematics and gives the teacher some light relief o dry "English" wit
- Sleeps in Biology - there has been some rumour of work in this dept. as well but no concrete evidense as yet
- Makes plans to become bilingual French
- Works in Music - as ever this is the one subject R feels the need to actually work is, and welcomes the break
- Discusses Philosophy, politics, religion... with anyone and everyone willing to spend time with her
- STILL has no prep*
*R's best birthday present was the first piece of chemistry prep which challenged her and made her think = dative and covalent bonding :D
On a music level R has found the year somewhat difficult, a period of severe depression just before her Music GCSE performance/composition had some negative consequences and she came away with an A. This has however, strenghtened her resolve to work and achieve in the following 2 years. In general many things have come and gone and R has made the unfortunate discovery that music is intrinsically linked to her state of mind. The uphill battle to overcome this slight obstacle still continues peaking with the Prospective Organists Course (Oundle Run) and taking a painful dip with a Merit for G5 Organ and Pass (117) for G8 Piano - the latter of which R will retake in the next few years.
Finally in the general analysis comes the development of social (and therefore religious) aspects (God is a very socialble entity). The progression to the Leys put our subject in a much better position to increase her number of sucessful social interations and the addition of various entertaining characters has given her many opotunities to engage in mental warfare of a bloodthirsty kind. The welcome addition of a boyfriend (James/Twig) has made an astounding change in her demenour and we are pleased with the result - we hope to see conintued strong positive correllation in this trend.
The much anticipated Kestrels cruise was a success as ever. (NB, we have considered giving our subject a portable storm maker, but decided this is too far from her perception of "normal". Instead we have sped up Global Warming and doubled the average wind strength - this has lead to incredible readings on both the "exhileration" and "calm" scales.) Whilst in the summer the Soul Survivor trip gave our subject a great chance to sort things our with both people and God, reducing many of the pressures that had piled up prior to the summer.
In general this year has been very mixed with a substantial quantity of events piling high on either side of the "good/bad attitude index" (GBAI). Still battling with the many voices directing her life and their somewhat substantial power over her actions, R has found a number of times very hard and painful and she has to keep radjusting her definition of the phrase "eternally grateful" to fit the new feelings. R has made considerable progress over the last year - although she rarely admits it - and is slowly but surely building up her list of strategies and (safe) coping mechanisms. We hope to see continued progress over the next few years and will keep you posted. We no longer have the fear we had for our test subject previously.
Other notable mentions include: A year of sucessful holidays, a suitable set of GCSE results, loosing her phone more times than she can count, a rapidly developing knowledge of Cambridges cafes and restaurants, better ways to cope with insomnia that do not invlove throwing up after caffeine poisoning (these do not include *sleep* yet, but we are working on it, one very orange ball dress, one sacked DT teacher ( :D ) and of course...
One more year of often unwanted, sometimes painful, occasionally destructive, but always benefial experiance.
The management would like to thank all concerned with the running and control of this project, we feel we have made good progress in our investigations and are well on the way to reaching some profound and enlightening conclusions within the next 200 years. We would like to congratulate all of you on a highly sucessful year - although we do hope there will be area where we can cut the "bad factor" as this may have been a little strong for a large proportion of the time.
Wishing you a Happy New Year
The Management
Human Research Sector, Developing Life, Test Case 1201199017
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12/17/2006
News of the Ruth
So yesterday was a little busy - for the first day of the holidays!..... I....
- Did my sister's paper round at 8!
- Mixed up fruit and brandy for Christmas cake (to be cooked tomorrow)
- First layer of chocolate on sweet cases
- Tidied kitchen a little
- Went to practise page turning for Susan (Diploma on Tuesday)
- Went into town and bought:
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- gloves
- mini table football set
- sweets for cousins (as usual)
- facewash and moisturiser (AT LAST)
- wrapping paper
- and a pink bouncy ball - because I am sooo cool
- Next layer of chocolate on sweets
- Made christmas cards (started anyways!)
- Got ready for le ball!
- Went to Le ball (larger update later)
- Home, and sleep!!!
I think thats about it... oh and watched Wuthering Heights in amoungst all that.... that film still has the power to make me cry! "My love for Heathcliff is like the eternal rocks beneath, source of little visible pleasure, but essential..."
:'(
yes I KNOW I'm a hopeless romantic... So what??
Dinner
xXx
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12/11/2006
Another Suitcase, another hall?
I really don't know what to say at the moment... to anyone and about anything... Just trying to get on and get by and refresh sufficiently to last the Christmas Holidays. They shouldn't be that bad: parties, wallking, Yorkshire, freedom, sleep, Twig, friends, church, Kestrels people, Massive open house at Matt and Janes... Jim and Hannah's wedding... music... If this Christmas goes Ok, it will be an entire year of *good* holidays....
As Rosie said... "We just better make sure you have a damn good holiday then" :D
Party on Saturday, then lab party yesterday.. both of which were amazing but for completely different reasons. Chris' party was absolutely hilareous and involved lots of randomness and hyperactivity and loud music/food/drink. Lab also involved randomness... VERY GOOD food and drink, but on a calmer scale, fewer people and just a different atmosphere. Went back briefly with Yvonne afterwards (to LMB). It is strange how much I like it there... jsut the memories of a time where I had to work, I had to think, I had to concentrate and also where I was respected for what I could do... and wasnt ignored because I happened to be 7 years younger than the majority of people there!
I suppose most of all it was the actually feeling useful... and respected for it.
2nd week boarding. Still loving it. Been ill so spent 2 nights last week in the San being ill... still caughing like some 80 year old chain smoker who just inhaled fresh air for the first time in a week.... and now the antibiotics have kicked in (I blame them!!!) my nose is streaming. But back in house now, and in a moment off to bed...
I play the Devil. I play the hypocrit. I play the liar, the troublemaker and the self-seeking diplomat. And I play to perfection. Each twitch of my hand, each flick of my eye fits the guise I aim to create. Only another player see's through my charade. Yet you do nto play my games. You do not deal your cards and raise the stakes beyond all human levels as I have. You do not risk all and live from the rush of winning... How do you read me? How do you know me? How do you see me? How do you love me?
xXx
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10/14/2006
Chapel Centenary et. al.
I've just realised how long it's been since I last updated....
So in brief (I have tennis in a very short time):
- I am coming to the end of my run of concerts: leading 2 services (not concert, but same quantity of work), one soiree (which went well but i played too fast so *I* know I got a load wrong even if everyone else said it was amazing), one orchestra concert - Mozart Basoon concerto whichw as awesome! :D and now various organ things for the Chapel Centenary at school - including a half hour slot playing in ummm nearly an hour! :S :S
- It's the Chapel Centerary at school so muchos celibrations... and the dedication of a processional cross which is rather odd considering it is a Methodist Church. But we are singing Parry "I was glad" and an AMAZINGAWESOMEFANTASTIC version of "Praise My Soul" complete with full Brass fanfare (pity they can't as yet play in tune).... anyway, tis fun. Also doing "Locus Iste" which is always nice.
- I am *STILL* bored out of my mind in all subjects. :'( but am now being made to do other stuff (game theroy in maths and Feynman lectures to fill out science - was decided that A level Chemistry would be a waste of time) instead of doodling and writing poetry.
- My midterm grades were straight As and mostly 1's for effort (DONT ASK HOW - I should have got 4's as I have done nothing this term) one 2 (pure maths, probably more deserved than the other 1's) and a 3 - Dr Addamson has been on Jury duty and not taught us this term....
Hoping to get some science work to do in lessons to..... tis very annoying only haveing 8 hours I can spend in a vaguelly interesting and productive manner - MUSIC PRACTISE! :P
Anyway. Nearly half term - break up on the Thursday next week. 6th from festival (culture!) this week which is good because = less prep...but i shall update on those later. anyway. tennis now
xXx
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09/20/2006
News Bulletin
- Started Leys - actually really good. I have work and occupation and some great people to get on with + LOTS OF MUSIC!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D (and a really really nice piano and a two manuel harpsichord pending!!)
- Playing harvest in 2 weeks - EEEEEK
- Jim has left and started with YFC (Cambridgeshire Youth for Christ) and will do AMAZING things in Cambridge
- Realised just how amazig my friends are. Their determination will force me to get through things I've given up on, I can't thank them enough
- Sorry to those to whome it applies. Someday.... I promise.
- Thank you to all those supporting and praying for me over the last few weeks and months. You've made so much difference.
ooh ooh ooh and we are going to start a 100% youth worship band!! :D cept it looks like I am doing both piano and lead vocal (and organ :P) :S .... Not sure I like that! (not at same time!)! but will be so good, we need to do more in church anyway.
anyway, sleep now.
sSs (typo - appropriate maybe?)
xXx
Btw: lots of posts on love. :S links into what we've veen looking at in church/cells... and also general thoughtful mood and wanting to examine what makes people content and what makes people people... and love plays such a key part of this.
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09/07/2006
New year
And so we start another term at a new school doing stuff I've basically (with a couple of exceptions in Music) done already :D. meh, its so nice to have something to think about again, I was growing a little immune to endless logic puzzels so some proper work is *almost* appriciated. Oh yeah! And my music class is a grand total of TWO! :D
Suffering from some sort of fatigue at the moment which is annoying as for once I am eating reasonably and sleeping between 6 and 7 hours a night!!! (V. good for me!) Got some throat/chest bug so that's probably what it is.
Shocking audition last night... singing wasn't too bad considering throat, at pitch and even some hint of tone a couple of times!! (*amazment*) the acting (minus voice/accent) was Ok, but the dancing was depressing as the step was one I'd learnt with different arms and it completelty threw me off! :( oh well. We'll see how it went lol.
Isn't it strange when you meet up with a load of people you used to be really good friends with and feel completely out of place and you can't decide whether it's you or them who has changed ("a bit of both" being a far too obvious compromise). May well have always felt awkward with them but just notice it more now (greater contrast). meh, it's too long ago an not really an issue. Always mildly disturbing to realise just how much has changed, fun and interesting though :) so I don't really mind.
Basil's party last night, I managed to get myself to the end of it which was funny... all the people going to Hills today: - have fun for the uhh 2 hours you are there.
Carrie's leaving cells tonight :D - unofficial of course as there is no way the leaders will have oragainsed anything by now! So I believe we are going to go pray in Starbucks. :P Can't believe she's going in less than 2 weeks :( and all the way to Sheffield. lol. so funny - she really doesn't want to go, which is expected, but still amusing - I suppose you do have to know her. Anyway I'm expecting Spanish inquisition to mysteriously appear there on account of Monday - There really are too many girls in our youth group!! great fun though, we just make the guys watch chick flicks anyway.
Organ: I have decided organised learning is not for me... I am going to pick 2 bars of the trio sonata (AT RANDOM) and learn those this week! heh.... we'll see if that works any better.
Still got sumemr updates to do, but so tired I'll give it a miss:
I just realised I dropped 10 marks in my Biology GCSE ... out of 400. 17 in Chemistry (HUH!!) and 36 in Physics - almost all on the paper which was EVIL! My physics coursework was also severely marked down :( which is annoying because we had so long to improve them, just I supposedly had "Nothing to improve"... meh. Pity I can't get breakdowns of everything else.
xXx
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08/24/2006
Bonjour
heh... I need to do more French - somehow - having a series of rather amusing conversations on msn with Tom and Val where they are effectively teaching me French. Which is very nice of them, and very useful for me :D but sort of making me regret giving it up :(. I will have to do something about that, I could actually get off my backside and start reading more French :S which would be invaluable. (could persuade Ruthie to do the same :P) Oh well.... you win some you loose some, just hope I dont loose as much French as I did Spanish.
- in percentages, the amount of spanish I ever actually learnt was pitiful!
Anyway, off to Towersy now, well of for results in 2 hours and then off to Towersey. hehe. I'm ill and tired, camping is going to be so much fun! I suppose I can sleep in the car, then run around madly pitching tents! The go to the first night Celidh, or the concert :S I dont know! And I've STILL not seen the program.
I am gradually loosing hope in a situation with which I had no hope to start with. Someone explain to me how this is possible. And if any of you (very kind and lovely people) try to give me more hope I will eat you alive! I'm sure it would be very useful at some point, but at the moment I'll settle for just getting on with it, one hour at a time.
I owe a number of you an apology again. I am trying, it just doesn't work all the time. Next year will be better.
We all dance, in our own ways. An intricate pattern twisted across the universe, a spun web of intent and purpose which we wind our way along. Sometimes the music makes us run and other times we move with the sedate majesty of a Court dance, slow but saturated with an unearthly authority. The system works, the system was designed to work and has been tested over the millenia, but all systems have a weak point. Sometimes a dancer forgets a move, sometimes they step out of place, then they loose where they are, they disrupt the dancers around them and chaos ensues where before there was beauty.
xXx
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08/20/2006
Home
Soul survivor was good :D very fun... also very challenging and difficult at times, desperately need to talk through a lot still and I've spent a large part of the week talking - just shows just how much builds up when you make a point of ignoring everything! ugh! I will gradually post updates, particularly on some excellent seminars, and also on general impressions and things I didn't agree with so much - just to be fair!
However, brain feels like it is being pushed through a garlic press so you will all just have to wait for now! and I shall leave with a load of lyrics that I have in my head!
Through the suffering still I will sing
When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You Healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart Tim Hughes – I’ve had questions I can only imagine what it will be like,
When I walk by Your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see,
When Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine. Refrain
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Hallelujah? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
Bart Millard – I can only imagine Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be. Refrain Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me! Thomas O. Chisholm and William M. Runyan – Great is thy Faithfulness xXx
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08/07/2006
A time for everything purpose under heaven ...
Today has been random for a number of reasons:
- I slept until 8am! - well woke up at 6 and then slept again :D :D :D (but admittedly was very tired the previous night and *still* stayed up tillnearly 2.... for a number and variety of reasons which do not need discussion.
- I made bread... reinvented the recepi! - can't knead, check oven and read size 8 print without glasses at the same time and not mae mistakes... It turned out Ok though... a little too stogy and slightly (VERY SLIGHTLY!) overcooked... which considering I forgot to time it was rather impressive.
- I cycled for 3 hours, randomly. It was seriously, pick a road and cycle along it. And I realised I left a fairly long stretch out of my calculations... so I shall just go and remeasure. In just over three hours I cyclebetween 28 and 32 miles. And for most of the time I didn't have a clue where I was! Ming you, I have to say that the feeling of elation when you realise that Cambridge actually *is* in the position you thought it was and you are actually going in (rouhgly) the right direction is amazing. Currently on an endophine high. :D which is always good.
- I currently have a brastrap tied around my wrist :S :S :S I think I found it downstairs and didn't want to forget
- I watched 2 very good films today - Chocolat and Shawshank Redeption. Both amazing films - the latter even better than the first - and very different. Shawshank Redeption is easily on my list of top 10 films (mind you I have about 30 films on that particular list!!). It isn't really possible to describe it, but if you can cope with very nasty language and some violence then either borrow from me or go and rent it becayse it is fantastic. (Chocolat is nothing like the book but still a very good film, particularly in referance to the colour and music used throughout, as well as being well acted and set in France. - English with a French accent never as good as French though :( )
- I am actually tired and might sleep without dreaming, which would be nice. I can never remember the dreams.... I just wake up knowing they happened... most of the time they aren't that good either. :S :( probably should mention that to the doctor at some point.
xXx
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07/04/2006
Of work and weather
aww poor woman, feel so sorry for her!
anyway... I got 5 minutes spare and am very bored. But have discovered and ingenious method of putting up my hair with a pencil. since it has been cut it no longer stays in a bun but now fall out into a loose ponytail :S but the front bits still stay in fortunately! but tis very weird just looped around I think.
My youngest sisters speech/review evening tonight and i believe she has a prize, so if she has decided to be modest and not tell you congratulate her because it is very cool :D :D :P
everyone is very happy atm because we GOT RESULTS! but there are several objections to the lack of extravagent celebrations over pretty cell pictures - or in my case a sucessful PCR.
was so beautiful last night, too hot, but beautiful, lay in the garden staring at the sky for several hours :D clear skies and very pwetty stars! too much noise from the road at whatever unearthly hour that was! a little tired today but was SO worth it. Can't wait for the thunder storm. lol.... then it will be shorts and t shirt and a VERY LONG cycle!! :D:D:D there is something about driving rain, thunder, lightening. Just something that makes you feel so free.
Can I just point out how much I dislike doctors :P (again im very sorry if any of you happen to follow that way of life) todays rant is about their lack of communication between each other. So had so rather confusing phone calls to make to sort out what was going on :S very confusing!! but ok now I think. Mind you, my arm still hurts so i may be going to doctor about that soemtime this week as well. - oh the joys!
THE AIR CONDITIONING IS BROKEN!!! *swealters and collapses!* so we've got it on warm because no circulation is worse than poor circulation and everyone is make frequent trips to the cold room - a rather chilly (in comparison) 4 degrees. again bring on the rain.
babysitting sometime this week - should really check when; also got britten rehearsal, windband concert, crossbar party and lab punt :D - so just a few spare hours kicking around.
meh... i need to get home, do organ and make some cards :D - MUST TIDY ROOM, IT IS APPALLING and HIDEOUS and SICKENING and I really need to learn some new words anyway that needs doing, and if its any cooler this evening ill have something to eat and sleep. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
must stop procrastinating now
xXx
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05/07/2006
the law is an interesting thing
lolol!
http://www.theinquirer.net/?article=31256
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04/11/2006
Home and Easter Week
J'ai plus de travail. Ce n'est pas juste! C'est le vacances et je dois faire de travail touts les jours, non! toutes les heures... Mais je ne faire pa ca! (Whoops!) Je suis trop fatigue et je ne veux pas faire ca! Je ne sais pas pourqui je suis ecrire en francais.
Well that was weird. Just as weird as being home. And I really do need to do some work now.... but it's too late. :S I'm not sleeping again. Which is disturbing for two reasons:
1. I REALLY need to sleep... I need the energy for motivation to get my work and music done... and not to collapse under various other majorly irritating pressures....
2. I just got back from something so amazing.... and I want to live off the good that has done me... and instead I am returning to a state of insomnia.... :S
Ahhh well.... soon I shall have caffeine again and all will be well - PLEASE dont take me serioiusly
ButButButButButButButButButButButButButButBut.....
I got the pattern for my dress today :D:D here and Mum brought me back some gorgeous wool - for lack of better term - fro, scotland... John Lewis is selling now :P 0883 is the colour! Mail me if you are here on Sunday Anne and I'll bring some... otherwise... whenever
I havn't actually got that much work to do:
- Revision: meh.... yeah I do need to and will do some! but it can wait for a week
- French: exam in 2 weeks which i can get low A* if I adlib.... but I should really do some sort of prep.... easy and basic though so not a problem
- Music: I have 2 exams coming up - and some AMAZING songs for singing (SunriseSunset from Fiddler on the Roof!).... plus I'm playing a service in 2 weeks... plus I had a lot of stamina to build up for oboe :S... fun!
- Dress.... 2 months to make 1 ball dress..... At least I can make a start now :P
Oooh... yeah... anyone read Eclesiastes.... it is VERY weird... I read it through in an evening... now going back and trying to work it out without much luck... Unless I take it at face value in which case the message is "life is pointless... nothing has any value... therefore live to enjoy and nothing more...." which seems contradictory in its own right :S The ramblings of wise people seldom make sense to anyone but themselves :P But I shall keep trying... and if I get to depressed I can flick back to the end of proverbs.... :P
Not quite sure what I'm doing for the rest of the week... but I need to attempt to get some sleep or tomorrow will end up being even worse than today... I might not even manage to get up! If I pack a bag now it might be more of an incentive to go out and get some work *done*! I might try that... I am getting so sick of being indoors again :( particularly with the nice weather coming back.... so I can go out all day :D:D
ok... bibi for good for now :P
xXx
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11/09/2005
News
Feel’s bad to be defeated by your own party? : P Ok that’s a bit evil but Tony Blair failed to get the House of Commons to pass the 90 Day Detention Order by 31 votes… 42 from his own party. Rather amusing media take showing Blair insisting he knew the views of the people of his country and his opposition are simply stupid and wrong. On the other hand his opposition from his own party are treading very carefully saying “We are not claiming to know the views of the people better than the Prime Minister… but we have opposed him before and gradually, over time, people have come to see that we are right”. Or in other words “We’re right and the PM is talking a load of crap”.
LOL!
http://www.channel4.com/news/content/news-storypage.jsp?i...
Oh yeah… and they are trying to introduce curriculum for toddlers. That is mixing the 1-3 and 3-5 education specification into one 1-5 specification – so basically generalised and measured education for under-fives. There wasn’t and objective information given which was irritating and I can’t find any extra information on the net yet. But it seems like there would be less chance for learning through play and the existence of tests at least annually from the age of 1 to 16 – or indefinitely if you want to go on learning…. One of my friends will be in university till she is 30! 7 years as a doctor… then training as a lawyer to become a forensic pathologist.
And then when you get to work your subject to reviews and reports etc.
Lol – anyone trying to add four years to that is sadistic!
Ugh so irritating not having proper information about it… hate having half formed opinions! But with the Blair’s first failure to pass something that has taken a very back seat.
Lol, this has been a very amusing evening – and irritating.
Good things today:
- Talked to Dr Newman (chemistry) about exams on Saturday and feel much better about that now… I may do the same for Maths and Biology if I can… and I managed to play my piano pieces well – even on a 3 foot stall!
- Statistics – yet another boring exam but I reckon I’ve only lost about 4/5 marks… I (despite checking for once!) mucked up moving average because I made the seasonal variation positive not negative! And then there will be marks lost for follow through. And leaving a few marks for mucking things up and still not realising. : P – I was quite impressed with working out something new… 30 minutes left at the end so I went to question I didn’t know and worked out how the thing worked – putting the numbers into my calculator until the fitted in together. : P : P : P I feel so clever – seriously it wasn’t exactly challenging but working out something completely new is fun!
- Still not doing much in the evenings… relaxing – well not doing coursework in the evening – is so much fun. Watching faaar too much Friends and Scrubs!
- Getting at least 8 (well basically that) hours sleep a night.
Anyway… yeyness… I think – maths tomorrow again – and then music scholarship on Friday – I am sooo scared about that it’s untrue. Sort of nervous when you don’t have a clue if I can do it
xXx
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